Day 30 (December 30)
Celebrate the little things – clean laundry, dinner, etc.
It’s the penultimate post of this project this year. Too often, we neglect the little things. After working today, getting my paycheck, paying bills, and doing laundry, I’m ready for the final day of the year. I can’t say what’s going to happen – I’m not a fortune teller. Perhaps it’s better to try to take it one day at a time. Sometimes, it’s all we can do. I don’t know if this year’s project had the same impact. It was harder this year to find things to write about.
Perhaps as you get older, you begin to become more cynical. You lose a part of the optimism, the hubris of youth. This is a necessary if not painful step. But with just over five months until a milestone birthday, I’m trying to find something to hold on to. (And I’ve got a wedding, too – I’ll be a groomsman in that). Perhaps fatigue got the better of me this holiday season, but something felt different this year about the project. I’m still glad I did it, but there was a more bittersweet tone to it. Maybe I didn’t do as good of a job as I hoped.
One more to go.
Day 29 (December 29)
Celebrate a day trip one hour north.
I went with my dad and stepmom on a day trip to Indianapolis today. Even though we could have gone earlier, or another day, we went today to try to see the tree at Monument Circle. It’s always been one of my favorite parts of the city. We started at Circle Centre Mall and did that for a few hours. Then we went to eat briefly, and then walked around the circle taking pictures. We got a little bit of snow as well, which was nice. Nothing was sticking, but it did feel pretty incredible to see. That’s just me. This is the bittersweet time – that afterglow in between Christmas and the end of the year. People hate to let the good feelings go, and the glitz, and whatever, but they know they have to. But it’ll come back again. We’ll see what happens.
Day 28 (December 28)
Celebrate off-days, and the potential for new adventures.
Technically, tomorrow is my day off, followed by six more days in a row. Sometimes, your schedule just works like that, sometimes you purposely take days you want or need. It’s nice to have a distraction. With any luck, I’ll be going with my dad and stepmom to Indianapolis tomorrow – something we haven’t done as a family for a while. We’ll see what happens on this. It’ll be nice to go somewhere, if only to break the monotony sometimes. This is one of the few times I wish I had a car – just hop in and go where the road takes me. But how you get there doesn’t have to influence you. You can learn a lot about yourself either way – it’s just a different way of doing so. Hopefully, we’ll have fun. And as this project winds to a close again, it’s always been nice to write. I prefer to use the pen instead of the voice – I feel like I can communicate better. Anyway, that’s all for tonight. Here’s to hopefully creating some new memories tomorrow.
Day 27 (December 27)
Celebrate a blue sky today.
Quite honestly, today kinda wasn’t the best day – I feel a sore throat coming on, my head was all over the place today (I think it’s fatigue from the season and the weekend coming back to kick me in the ass), and it’s been painful to think about a friend of mine who died in a car crash (today is her birthday – RIP Rachel). And on top of that, Carrie Fisher, aka Princess Leia in Star Wars, died from complications of a heart attack. So, this is all I can come up with today. No clouds in the sky, which is a welcome change from yesterday. It’s also a celebration of contrasts, I guess. I’m sorry I can’t be more accommodating today, but sometimes, no matter how hard you push, you can’t get that “sludge” feeling out of your head. I have four more days of doing this, which has been nice to get back to again. But today is one of the hardest writing days for this, because I can’t get into the spirit.
Day 26 (December 26)
Celebrate the rain that came today.
Walking home from work today, I was drenched. I mean absolutely drenched. Shoes, socks, shirt, pants, everything. But to be honest, it felt pretty fun to walk in. Maybe I’m crazy, but I welcome the rain (as I’ve said in other posts). I couldn’t really think of anything else today, so this will have to suffice. I’m still coming down from the afterglow of the weekend. I need another day or so.
Day 25 (December 25)
Celebrate the inspiration for the project in the first place – Christmas Day.
A common maxim is that “Christmas comes but once a year.” It’s a bittersweet maxim – it takes a lot out of us, and many rail against the commercialism or other factors. But a few minutes ago, I read a message saying that no matter how discouraging this year was, this is a day of joy. Whatever is coming up in the near future will be dealt with. Hopefully, I’ll be able to stay the course. All you can do sometimes, right?
But today, I haven’t seen any anger, any bitterness. A lot of us are worn down by the world’s current events, and I can’t say I blame them. I try and avoid the confrontation whenever I can. I know I shouldn’t, and it’s not something I’m necessarily proud of, but it’s not that easy for me to get that worked up. It’s too overwhelming for me. I admire everybody’s passions, but you’ll forgive me if I’m in the shadows a little bit more. I’m with you, but I ask to do it in my own way.
Anyway, as often happens, I got off track. There’s a beauty to this day, in whatever way you like to celebrate it. And to my friends celebrating Hanukkah, enjoy it as well. L’chaim (‘לחיים).
Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays, everybody. I know I have your love and support, which can get me through a lot of the tough times. It means so much. That’s the best gift anybody can get this year.
Day 24 (December 24)
Celebrate emotional highs that linger on.
Ladies and gentlemen, I’m still on a high (emotional, of course) from last night. I got several pictures (I meant to take more, but conversations happened and I couldn’t remember to take any). It was very nice to see everybody that I did see again. I wish I could have seen others, but I understand that they couldn’t make it.
I was also told by a few people that I was the one that brought a lot of the attendees together. I don’t know how true that is, but it is flattering to hear. All I really did was double-check on some logistical issues, and next thing I knew, we had about 40 people.
Read that again. We had close to 35-40 people from our graduating class there. For a 10-year reunion – for any reunion at all – that’s pretty impressive. I thought we’d be set at about 20. So thanks everybody for coming. We may do a round two in summer of next year. We’ll see what happens.
Class of ’06, always a pleasure. Thanks for bringing back old memories, and giving us new ones.
Day 23 (December 23)
Celebrate reunions and seeing old friends again.
I’m about to head out towards downtown to see old friends again. It’s officially here – my ten-year reunion. Maybe I’m more excited than I should be. We may have 25 people, we may have 10. But I’m sure it’ll be fun no matter what. Here we go. Hoping for a fun time.
Day 22 (December 22)
“The suspense is terrible. I hope it will last.”
Tomorrow is one big event that I’ve been anticipating for several months. Having worked several big shifts this week, maybe I shouldn’t be treating it as seriously as I am, but it’ll be nice to see a lot of people again, or at least to say hi. Like it or not, we all did four years together, so we are bound together somewhat.
And of course, the big reason for the season is just around the corner. I’m not sure what I’ll do (we already did our celebration, so it wouldn’t make sense to do another one), but having an off-day will be nice. We’ll figure something out.
Day 21 (December 21)
Celebrate the winter solstice.
I have to write this now, since I’m working a double shift and don’t get off until midnight tonight. So, I could do this later, but it would be better to do it now.
In another irony, the first official day of winter, the shortest day of the year, is not as cold as it’s been in the past few days. After all is said and done, winter is officially here. I’m ready for it. We’re supposed to have more vortex-like weather coming up; I know I’m crazy, but I’ll take it. There’s a balance there, so forgive me if I want a little of it. Besides, I have to walk in it anyway. It’s a lot easier to do it in this weather – I’d rather dress up than dress down. That’s just me.